Full Moon (not the movie)

I don't know if anyone noticed the full moon this weekend, but I know I've definitely been feeling it the past few days. If your not familiar with the cycles of the moon and how it affects moods it's really interesting to do a little research in. I'm not an expert or anything, but I know the 3 days following up to the full moon is usually a time of euphoria and excitement. Ever been in a really good mood and have no idea why, or what about those days when it's a lot easier to just let things roll off your back? Check the moon's cycles because a full moon may be the reason! Now, do you ever have those days when you just want to cry and any little thing can get under your skin?? That's usually what happens for the 3 days following the full moon. Granted, I think for some this has more of an affect than others depending on your chemical make up already, but for others like me...I am very much affected by moon cycles and planetary alignment.

So, guess what Sunday was...the full moon! I'm guessing that's why I've wanted to do nothing but ball my eyes out for the past 2 days! So, if you feel like you've been riding an emotional roller coaster this weekend don't make any rash decisions until at least Thursday or it may be a decision that you will later regret!

P.S. I finally got my comments working!! Apparently when I selected "Anyone" it really meant "no one"!

Home again, home again...

It's Sunday night, and I'm recovering from another weekend of bliss.

Friday after work Phillip and his son, Kaleb, picked Makayla and I up from Memphis to spend the weekend with them in Ft. Campbell. I was really apprehensive at first about meeting Kaleb, and even more apprehensive to see how well Makayla and Kaleb would get along. As soon as they pulled up one of my fears was instantly squished! They pull up and after giving me a hug Phillip opens up the back door to his truck and lifts out a miniature version of himself, down to the same eyebrows! Makayla being the social butterfly she is comes running out the door, "My name is Makayla! What's your name little boy?" They hit it off IMMEDIATELY! It took him a few hours to come out of his shell with me, which is completely understandable! I knew that this was all going to be new to him so I didn't get too pushy, but by the end of the day on Sunday he was completely out of his shell!

The weekend was perfect, the weather was perfect, the kids got along perfect...it was too perfect! Saturday night as we sat in the backyard, Phillip on the grill, and the kids running around, I just couldn't help but think that I could definitely get use to this. I could see myself there, picturing the swing set we would buy and the pool, picturing Makayla's things in one of the bedrooms, taking trips to the PX and Commissary on the weekends. We even talked about getting a boat for trips to the river.

I finally got to experience the family that I've always wanted, and it has completely scared me to death! I'm scared of getting hurt again. Now that I've gotten a taste I'm hooked, like a drug, and I want more! I want more perfect weekends like this! One thing I've learned about drugs though, is no matter how good they make you feel they will hurt you! My head is screaming right now...."RUN! Run far and fast before you get hurt again!" But what if I'm finally getting what I've always wanted? What if my dreams are finally coming true? Is it worth risking the pain?

Yummy in my Tummy!

As some may know I've been trying really hard to eat better, and by better I don't just mean to loose weight; by better I mean organically, naturally, locally (this last one is a little harder to do). Anywho...unfortunately the whole organic, naturally, local movement has not completely caught on so it makes it even more difficult. Well last summer my BFF from when I was in the Army decided to move from Tacoma, WA to New Orleans and on her way down she made a pit stop here in Memphis. While she was here she introduced me to my healthiest addiction ever.... VEGGIE CHIPS!!! They are dehydrated veggies such as sweet potatoes, squash, zucchini, and green beans with just a little spice added and they are MUY BIEN! Way better for you than potato chips, but satisfy that same crunchy craving! She purchased hers from a locally owned grocery store in Tacoma that makes them right there in the store out of locally grown produce!!! Well, I've searched Memphis high and low for at least a pre-packaged version to no avail! Even Whole Foods didn't have any! Well I found them at an online store called ohnuts.com and ordered 2 lbs! I'm telling you ladies, if you have small children and are trying to get them to eat veggies...these are perfect for you! They also have all kinds of nuts, dried fruits, trail mixes, and other goodies! Go to their website and check them out!!!!